My life changed three years ago today. But it wasn’t an instantaneous change. I officially pledged before God and man that I’d love, honor, and cherish my David until death. Outside of following Christ, it’s my life’s greatest choice. ?
But leading up to that day, I had already made a lot of choices. Many of my choices were unwise and ungodly. I was not perfect. I didn’t follow God as I should have in many ways. But He looked beyond my failures and saw the jewel inside of me. He saw a heart that truly was seeking His, flawed as it may have been. ?
For so many of my (many) single years, I felt I had to please God and earn His favor to be blessed with my dreams. I tried so hard to be perfect. Then I grew weary of trying to be perfect, and I went too much in the opposite direction. ⬅️
Then I hit rock bottom. It was almost exactly five years ago that I cried out to God, “I need You to be my everything!” from a heart that was truly broken and in need of miraculous healing. ❤️
God met me where I was. He became my source for confidence and contentment. I took a year off of dating and focused on who God says I am. I became a whole Angel. ?
A little over one year later, I met David. And the rest is history. In a little over three-and-half years, we dated, were engaged, got married, had twin boys, and are soon to have a little girl. Phew! ?
I share all this in hopes of offering hope to some of you who are reading this snippet of my life’s story. Sometimes it seems like God has forgotten or abandoned us. But He is always there, waiting for us to turn to Him so He can love us fully and unconditionally. ?
God is faithful, even when we are faithless. God is trustworthy, even when others are not. Here is one of the songs we had at our wedding. It represents God’s unconditional and perfect love toward us, and it also represents the goal David and I pledged to live our lives toward: loving each other unconditionally. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-jWNFmJO7U4 ??
“There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love. We love because he first loved us.” (1 John 4:18-19) ??