(This blog was posted January 4, 2018.)
Promise it’ll be awkward on my ‘end,’ I’m sure.
But promise it needn’t be dreaded on yours—
But after a couple days of reflection,
And some time in meditation,
I’ve concluded that my heart ’twill not be at rest—
Until you and I have spoken in more than just jest.
I have acted like most every other girl—
So it’s easy to justify my not behaving like a Pearl.
But the truth is that God has higher plans—
And he doesn’t intend on me enticing a man.
Sometimes I tire of seeking His heart.
But I’m not a half-asser, and can’t just give ’em part.
Seeking purity comes with a cost I’d rather not pay.
It means I’ll sound like a prude some will say—
Which is so far from the truth that it’s crazy.
So in my fight, sometimes I get lazy—
Feeling prized only for my body, my heart grows hard.
At times I feel used and apathetic, and I let down my guard.
I said “yes” to God with ease years ago,
But waiting on him now…is much harder so.
He’s not asked me for my virginity.
He’s asked me to seek his heart of purity—
And to travel the oh-so-narrow road
That at times kills—But is the only true road
That will lead to peace for my soul.
